I used to think of being in this and that industry...
But dreams and hopes just don't usually turn out well..
Being in the outdoor industry, life can be both hard and smooth..
Just like life - I guess..
Getting away seems like a solution..
But is it worth it?
Listen to what I had wished for years ago, I feel so small..
Once, I was a girl whom wish to be in the media industry..
To be exact, a reporter for magazines and newspapers..
But what had I became now??
Jobless, aimless person I guess..
There's tons of work out there..
But I'm just looking at them and not doing anything??
I guess not..
I guess I'm just observing.. Being observed??
Maybe I'm being observed than me being the observer..
Observing doesn't means much when it comes to me..
Looking and letting it pass-by seems like the term to describe that; I think....
I seriously think that I should had done a lot more in my secondary schools days like joining dance, learning guitar, being in band, being in in-line skating, playing netball, joining NPCC and such....
I guess it will be better if either of the choices or options were being made...
Staying in Gu-zheng, I have to say its something good..
YET something bad as it DOES NOT require the amount of time which my instructor had said it required..
And the realization just start like what??!! A few years later when I'm in poly or say even now as I'm thinking through what had I really done in my past life..
Cheers to my past life...
Its time to move..
Its time to think better or smarter..
Its time to put everything behind..
And PRAY to myself for a better me HAVING to START NOW...
